bethany :)

:)

2008-03-05T22:05:27Z

i.
like.
falling.
in.
love.

bethie_gee @ 2008-02-22T20:43:00

2008-02-22T20:44:15Z

everything i own has been put in a binbag.

i'd run away.
but i have nowhere to go.

expect the unexpected [:

2008-02-14T14:35:39Z

it's been a lifetime since i last posted; and a lifetime of changes has happened. probably & mainly; adam. [:
alas yes, bethie has a boyfriend. aha. i wasn't looking and he appeared, and it's all been very fantastic. i met him @ college because he's a friend of a friend, and the first night we spent 7 hours talking. and then we went out for a day up town, and totally clicked. and a whole week later, we're together. and it's all so very very very good. i'm into realism; but i can see myself being with AJ for a while yetttt :)

this half term, however, has been waste. no-ones been up for doing anything, and i've only seen AJ once (yesterday; he came round for an hour). i may aswell be at college, cause the next time i'll see him is saturday & i see him on saturdays anyway. but yeaaaahhh. :)

i am pretty infatuated, he's all i think about. mega crush, much? i suppose i'll post the picture of me & him for you all to gawp at ahaha.

but yeahhh, my life is so very good right now.
& i don't want it to end :)

if misery loves company;
well, so long.
you're gonna miss me when i'm gone.

did you knowww..

2008-02-14T13:41:46Z

that hadouken! have lowered the age at their koko gig to 16+? 18th feb, rawrrr, i wish i could go.

damn living outside of london. :(

our ambition got cast aside.

2008-01-16T01:16:28Z

i lost interest; it doesn't seem like you mean, i don't believe that you believe it.
& it feels like running with your eyes closed if you forget what you're supposed to be told.
lets go see raoul; lets make a stand!
for all the ones who, used to give a damn, working overtime,
our ambition got cast aside; thrown away when the batteries died

i like this song alot (raoul - the automatic) i haven't heard it in a long time but i bought an old NME album last week & it was there, so good times :) along with the klaxons. which was always rather fab, but i bought the klaxons album over christmas anyway.
while i'm on this subject, i may aswell talk about music. i think i may make a post about music every tuesday, that'd be cool :D.
so, the last album i bought was myths of the near future by the klaxons. it is an old album now, but it's taken a year to grow on me. standout tracks are, obviously, the single's released (as it goes on most albums). golden skans and atlantis to interzone especially. it's good, but it's not repeat-able. by which i mean; i can't listen to it everyday, which i do with hard-fi, bloc party etc. i'm listening to pretty much british-guitar-indie-pop or the new kinda synth-indie-electro-pop. for the latter, i've been listening to like does it offend you, yeah?, FOALS(who i saw in october) and simian mobile disco. there's a genre i've stumbled across and fell in love with, it's all keyboards & melody & guitars and it's pretty beautiful. bands like the great eskimo hoax (who i saw with FOALS) and MINNAARS (an unsigned myspace find :)!) of course, the majority of my listening is made up by hard-fi. but they're amazing; and anyone who is anyone should listen. my recommendation for the week is the great eskimo hoax. they're lovely & if you get a chance you should check them out on myspace :) i've got two gigs coming up this week. on sunday i'm seeing avenged sevenfold and then next saturday i'm seeing seasick steve. i'm really not into the whole "rock" movement anymore, though i'll listen to pretty underground post-hardcore, but i did use to like a7x and it's another band for my list. seasick steve is pretty up & coming. he's a singer/songwriter acoustic blues/soul thing. it's pretty listenable.

so, what are you up to with music this week?

in other news, i finished all my college coursework yesterday and we're about to choose a play for our performance in march. this is the unit i've been looking forward to. we might be doing the crucible, which i really like since i did it at GCSE in english or antigone which is a modern play based on greek mythology. i'm not so keen, but miss is finding it hard to find a play with 9 roles. so really, whatever.

i'm off to bed, i downloaded my russell brand podcast. i always miss his show cause it's just inconvienantly timed. i'm never really in @ 9 on a saturday night, so i just download the podcast every tuesday & listen while in bed. i love m'russell. oh i do.
nighttt :)

my updating has been awful.

2008-01-12T02:01:05Z

but my life has been pretty hectic.
so after i've done all my college work tomorrow; i'll make some proper big fuckoff entry :D.

love.

this looked exciting :)

2007-12-26T02:20:47Z

1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note, but it does not have to be for me.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint to who you are.
9. After you do it for me, put it in your LJ and see who does it for you.

how fab :) christmas today!! well, yesterday actually now. but it was probably the best christmas i've had in a long while. i didn't ask for anything this year, i didn't even get much money but i've had the best christmas in years.
my parents don't have much money because of my dad, and his little alcoholic ways (eurgh) so i feel bad asking for something big, i asked for £50 and then my nan gave me £55 so i pretty much ended up with £105 which made my day :) but it wasn't about that. i got some little presents too though, 2 books. brand's booky wook & the second sharon osbourne book, cause i liked the first, soaks, clothes & eyelinerrr. i got the best neon green eyeliner ever, i can't wait to go to the sales on thursday with julie though. i love having money, i don't have it often, but god knows when i do.. whee.

but yeah, christmas. nana & grandad came over for an hour or so, cause if you didn't already know, christmas day is also my little sisters birthday. so it's pretty big in our house. she was 6 today, it's weird how time has gone so quick. she'll be 10 in four years. that's weird. i remember when she was first born thinking how old i'll be when she was 10, 21. this year i'm 18, it scares the living shit out of me.. and i've babbled again. ANYWAY christmas; we played some games, watched some TV and had a massive dinner. it was wicked really :)

though coming online @ like half 10 and seeing aload of twats being all "LOLZ I HATE CHRISTMAS" really pissed me off. if they hate christmas that much they'd give all their ipods, wii's, phones' back to their parents and be like "here, i don't believe in this shit, lets not celebrate it." but no; they'll take the shit.

but yeah, all over again for another year. such a buildup to such a fast 24 hours.
wow.

run down my street; adidas on my feet, i'm on fire..

2007-12-24T10:57:07Z

christmas eveee! :)
how very exciting i must say, the bug has bitten me i suppose. was watching some christmas film yesterday and i decided that was enough to get me going for christmas aha.
seeing my julie today :)! gonna be good, just vibing around town i reckon. birmingham's exciting on christmas eve, you can just sit on a bench and watch the world go by. they rush for everything, woolworths is always the most busy. people buying lights & shit. and then, something will sell out somewhere (my money's on the wii this year) and everyone will be queuing outside the only shop that has some left.

i'm pretty happy tbh.
merry christmas & happy new year. xo.

don't you think we stayed for too long? don't you think the colour has gone?

2007-12-23T03:38:30Z

isn't it crazy how i'm scared to post a blog because i'm scared how people will judge how i feel? isn't it crazy i don't even care about myself anymore, as long as everyone else is happy?

mind. barrier.

scared of writing anything incase people take it the wrong way or people say "lolz u nt got no rl probz" or just, being judged. i have this constant fear of being judged by what i say. but, i actually don't give a shit. it's just this initial fear of people taking me at face value. when i go to write anything of any real value my whole head freezes. it's like someone pours glue in the space that isn't filled with muscle & fluff & innards of sorts. i wish there was a way of vomitting your thoughts. this'll be really gross but y'know, i'm gonna go for it anyway, when you're sick and you look at the sick and you can see little pieces of what made you sick. and you're like, oh right maybe i shouldn't have eaten that. i wish i could do that with my mind, just take a big spoonful, whack it infront of me and scruitinize the contents. i'd love to know what's making me so confused right now. i can't distinguish whether it's work, my friends, family, the world.. it could be anything, i just can't distinguish between all three.

have you ever tried to switch your passion for something over to something else? like "channelling your aggression". i'm trying to do that. it's not working, i powered all my hatred for what was happening into my love of hard-fi and now i'm obsessed. i have a lifesize poster next to my bed. and before i go to sleep and after i wake up, i speak to rich. i confide in rich. i tell him what's happening, what i actually feel about it and how i'm gonna sort it out. he's an image on a piece of old paper, but he knows more about me right now than anyone else in the world.

i miss simon. and i thought i'd never say that, but i do incredibly. i start to wonder whether i did the right thing in completely cutting all ties. i lied to him to make him hate me, and now he'll never believe that's true. in may, when everything fell apart with lee, i tried to communicate with simon; and he made his feelings pretty damn clear. he doesn't want anything to do with me ever again, if only he knew how much he hurt me, but how much i still adore him. he was the only person i've ever truly loved, and the only person that has ever truly understood me. he made me feel like a princess. i wish i could get that feeling back. i don't think anyone quite understands how much i miss him. i am dead to him. he should be dead to me after everything he said and how he treated me at the end. but he's not, he's still as alive as ever and i can still remember how much he made my face ache from smiling.
i miss him.

so. so. so. much.

and i think i just realised why i'm so down.
fuck.

we were hoping for some romance..

2007-12-17T20:17:48Z

i posted this on myspace early;

"rant time :)

veganism; or more correctly, the voicing of ones opinions on veganism. i'm vegetarian, i have been since birth there was no choice for me on the matter, and the fact is i hate it with a passion. but i have only put that in so people aren't like "lolz u onli say dat cuz u eat meat" because i don't, and unlike most "vegans" or "vegetarians" i never have.

anyway, i have a complete problem with PETA. what a bullshitting propagander machine, it's completely stupid. they display every aspect of meat consumption for humans as barbaric. the cases they show in their magazine, which in my opinion is more useful as toilet paper than a literary device, are completely isolated. i can garuantee if you went to 10 slaughter-houses, you probably wouldn't see one that treats animals in the way PETA decipates.

secondly; they display every person who doesn't choose veganism as a twat. i'm sorry, that's complete bullshit. for centuries humans have been eating meat to survive, tell me; in ireland in the potato famine, if it hadn't have been for certain meats the whole of the population would have died out. would veganism have been an answer then? of course; the counter-argument is that nowadays there is much more choice around and people can survive without meat, but thus again. why should people have to survive without meat?

my mother is vegetarian out of choice unlike me or my sisters, and she will not allow PETA magazine in my house. my sister orders it, and my mother throws it away.

without being called specieist; i put human rights before the rights of animals. because i am human. i swear, if people care so much about animals, go ahead and do it your way because that's your opinion. and fair does; but you don't have to shove it down everybody elses throats.

veganism isn't the most sanctifying thing in the world, neither is the most superior. so i suggest everyone who walks around preaching this shit perhaps takes a look in the mirror and keeps themselves to themselves.

you're not saving anything."

and i stand by every fucking word :)
i'll update later x.

fucking. hell.

2007-12-15T00:38:55Z

someone got stabbed at the party, it had to finish 2 hours early and we were all police escorted out of the university. ;l.

but, i've just got back from hard-fi(who were amazingly amazing) and i'm too tired to blather on, because i'm fucking knackered like a knackery bean. :)

i'm so happy.

don't make plans; you're broke.

2007-12-13T01:41:57Z

Yeeeeyyy I'm seeing Hard-Fi tomorrow :) I can barely contain my excitement to be quite honest. I was adding loads of people on my MySpace tonight that I haven't spoken to in ages, should be quite fun when they accept.
Today; I skipped drama because I couldn't face doing all the work ;x I will get round to it someday, just not right now. Perhaps before Leah's party on Saturday or, before iSPYSTRANGERS on Sunday.
Tonight's the Oaks party, I'm wearing my new dress & cardi, so pretty excited :) To make things easier, I'm staying at Julie's afterwards. She's paying for a taxi home y'see, and the buses to my house stop at half 12 (the party ends at 1) so it's just easier if I go home with her and go to college with her the next morning. Fucking hell, I'll be on time for once. Julie's never late :)
Envision was fun, just basically ate jelly babies & chocolate fingers. Whilst dancing on tables and reading Lauren's karma sutra book. Haha, Josie & Julie and Lauren & Leah acted out the positions as I read them out, proper funny. Lucky Andy didn't walk in on that really, I think he'd be a little shocked. :)
Well anyway, I guess I should go sleep now because otherwise I'll be fucked for the party and then I'll be fucked for Hard-Fi, which just can't happen. Me & Lauren will be front row, and I'll be singing along to every single word and hoping Richard listens to me when I shout for him again, cause god knows I fucking will be :))))))

speak soon kiddos x.

i think you should know you're his favourite worst nightmare.

2007-12-12T00:38:47Z

Safe :) I never get round to doing this anymore, I always end up talking to someone or doing some work or something. I suppose, I've only got round to doing this cause I fell asleep at like six tonight and now I'm pretty bored, cause Lee went to bed. And yeahhh, Lee is the only person (minus Tom) who I really speak to around this time.
Sooo, I can't really remember when I last blogged, oh wait yes I can. Night after Sleepout. Bloody hell, Sleepout really killed me. I got a cough which I still haven't cleared, and my feet are all cut and shit. Despite the fact it's been 2 weeks. But, I had so much fun with Laura, Ross, Rafael & Charlotte that I suppose it was worth it. And, I did raise bare ting money for charity :)
All I can think about really at the moment is the fact I'm seeing my favourite band ever again on Friday :) Yeeeep, I get to go see Hard-Fi again. I'm bloody buzzin', but not only thaaat; I'm going to see iSPYSTRANGERS (yay Mikey) on Sunday and Fightstar next Wednesday. I'm meant to be working on Friday, but like I've said before, do I ever? I haven't really mentioned the last three/four bands I've seen recentely. I saw The Cribs, Foals, Blackout, Lethal Bizzle, The Enemy, iSPYSTRANGERS, Flood of Red, Pierce The Viel and South Central in October. They were all pretty good, bare videos on my Youtube if anyone's bothered aha (just search "bethieflavouredtrash"). I didn't really do any gigs in November; just Hadouken! with Shut Your Eyes & You'll Burst Into Flames and The Ghost Frequency. I would really recommend The Ghost Freq to everyone, they're bloody amazing and so good live. :) I saw The Wombats again last Wednesday in Wolverhampton. I love going to Wolvo, I love travelling if I'm honest. I suppose that's why I rate Hard-Fi in Coventry w/Lee as one of my favourite gigs. The whole build up of getting the train there etc and then winding down on the way back, I bloody love travellingggg :)
Gigs aside, life is pretty dandy. Sixth Form is alright, the lessons aren't amazing but I'm on top of my work (minus drama) and my grades aren't bad. I don't have any modular exams in January like most of the people there, so haapppyy :) Infact; my first AS exam is in May ahaha. That's bare time, though we're starting coursework now which is a little scary. I love english lit, it's really grown on me. I love studying the language and looking for the metaphors and reading between the lines. I'm particularily good at the latter, that's what Mrs.Price says anywayy :) I love her tbh, I wouldn't enjoy english half as much as I do if it wasn't for. She really gave me a passion for the subject, of which I'm thankful for :)
Sixth Form is particularily good because of my friends. In summer I was truly worried I'd be pushed out by a new group, totally the opposite. I cataylysted a whole new group of people I hang around with, and I love it. I love working/learning with guys again. I totally get their sense of humour and it's fun to have people who will do pretty much anything for laughs again. Me & Julie are closer than ever, it's pretty amazing :) I love her lots, me & Charlotte don't talk much anymore, but I suppose we all have to move on at some point.
Talking of Sixth Form; we have our Christmas Party on Thursday at the University, it's going to be so funny :) This weekend is really hectic for me actually. Thursday; Xmas party, Friday; Hard-fi w/Lauren, Saturday; Leah & Laura's birthday party @ Dragon BBQ, Sunday; iSPYSTRANGERS w/ Leah, Lee & everyone. And then, Fightstar on Wednesday.
Oh, I'm actually blonde at the moment too, but I don't like it. I'm going to dye my hair red sometime this weekend. I guess it'll go proper nice :) Because my hair is so light the colour will just take. I might actually dye it copper, like proper ginger :) I like the originality of having auburn hair. Everyone hates it, but I think it's proper pretty.

Anyway; this whole blog has just been narrative as such. I haven't really given an insight to how I feel. To be honest; I don't really know. I felt like complete and utter shit last week and I thought no-one wanted or needed me, but I've come to realise that was complete bullshit and I was just being paranoid. I do have a complete paranoia when it comes to shit like that, but I suppose it's just my prerogative not to be "left out". Maybe I should stop being so selfish, ahaha. I really crave intimacy right now, the idea of having a fuckbuddy is quite appealing to me. I don't want love, but lust would be lovely. I flirt with everyone anyway; so may aswell let it go somewhere :)! I'm happy I suppose, little behind with my work & I'm always tired, but happy. My social life is better than ever, I finally have a balance between work & play that I'm happy with. Though; I may be going to too many gigs. It's really not good for my health and I may start cutting down.

And that's it really :) Oh, I haven't really mentioned Christmas. it was two weeks yesterday and I'm really not that excited. I'm not really getting any presents, I just asked for money to spend in the sales. All i want really is clothes & shoes. I'll probably buy a few gig tickets too, gigs are becomming an unhealthy obsession, as are Hard-Fi. I'm obsessed with Richard Archer, he makes me beyond happy. I do think I'd probably give everything up for him if he was doing a private gig somewhere. God, he's amazing. Bebo and MySpace keep sending me Birthday reminders for Leah. Asif I'd forget, duhhh.

God knows when I'll update again. Probably next week or something, I really can't see another free time for me til Tuesday. I might add some pictures to this, just for the jokes. Maybe me in a bear costume. LOL =]
laterzzzz.

P.S: Did you see I used capitals and proper punctuation there for the whole entry? I'm well proud of myself, I am. :)
P.P.S: I forgot my new addiction to Whose Line Is It Anyway? I watch it on Dave (best TV channel in the world, bar none) every night :). Oh, and Top Gear & old Never Mind the Buzzcocks. I used to watch the Mark Lamarr shows with my parents when I was about 10+ and I used to bloody love them and it's amazing Dave shows them all now :). Blody buzzin'.
Arctic Monkeys (L).
D is for delightful & try to keep your trousers on;
I think you should know you're his favourite worst nightmare.

you figure it out 'til your hearts collide.

2007-12-02T03:27:09Z

my life is proper good at the moment.

i slept in a box last night for charity. yeah, a cardbord box in a carpark. i've caught a cold & stuff but, y'know. it's a charity i support, and youth homelessness is a definite problem.
i also saw lee yesterday, so good times! (Y).

i'll write more tomorrow, i wanna start blogging properly again. i love having a release.
but now i'm too tired.

p.s: the dykeenie's album is really good.

bethie_gee @ 2007-11-09T01:53:00

2007-11-09T01:55:16Z

it's laughable that i'd rather have a conversation with shakespeare's grave than anyone else right now.

lucy's birthday party tomorrow.
college is going too well.

i was well born into the wrong century. fuck.

aged.

2007-10-14T11:02:05Z

yeah, i'm now seventeen. well i was a couple of weeks back, but i haven't really blogged since then. so, yeah seventeen. i feel really old if i'm honest. can't explain it though, but yeah, old.

i will start blogging properly now. i have a lot to say recentely, mainly i need to outline how the fuck to get into drama school ;x.

how are things at the moment? good, except i have acute tonsillitis. started off as a cold, by thursday i couldn't move so i went to the doctors and she gave me a whole load of pills to take. they actually make my stomach hurt, but i suppose if i wanna get better i gotta make some form of sacrifice. the fact i have a cough really isn't helping the throat though.

been to so many gigs over the last few months. the last time i blogged was just after cov hard-fi (which was amazing, btw) but yeah since then the wombats, the holloways, the cribs, the foals, iSPYSTRANGERS! and the blackout. going to see wombats/enemy/lethal bizzle on saturday with lee, actually supposed to be teaming 8-) but ya'know. work? me? never.

:)

2007-09-08T13:36:05Z

in the past week i've seen hard-fi twice (in coventry & birmz), been to aberystwyth university & i'm absolutely fucking wrecked.
yesterday was well rushy, but LOL i loved it. (:

i'm so happy right now.

my gcse results :)!

2007-08-26T00:27:55Z

i got 15 a*-c gcses. :))))))
including; 3a*'s, 8b's and 3 c's.

i am fully aware that does not equal 15, but i took some gcses the year before (maths, statistics etc)

i'm over the moon i got a*'s in both english lit and english lang, because that means i'm fabulous. it's true

anyway i suppose i should blog about thursday since it was practically the best night in ages;

at 5 i went to meet leah outside tescos, but i got there well early so i was like mooching (isn't that a godsend of a word) around tesco and i decided i really like their sunglasses, ANYWAY! so i met leah and we went back to hers and pissed about, at 7 we went to broad street. for those that don't know, broad street is the nightlife of birmingham. 200 clubs on the street, neon lights, 4am dancing etc etc it's amazing. so we got pizza, which was pretty nice actually considering the price. and we went up to dragon barbecue. dragon bbq is a chinese resturant, that was quite happy to serve us with alcohol all night.
me & leah didn't have the buffet, but everyone else did & the chinese people got annoyed LOL but it's all good. we had £270 behind the bar. please convert that to whatever currency you use. either way; you'll see it's a hell of a lot. i drank about 6 bottles of smirnoff ice, 6 pints of cider (LOL) and 7 sambucca-on-fire shots. which i burnt my mouth on because no-one told me you had to blow the flame out, i mean LOL. gawd.
so yeah that was so much fun, it just was just jokes a plenty all evening :D
mega love to; laura h, alice, hannah, tasha, lauren, alex, sasha, lauren a, helen, jade, leah, laura w and jodie for that night. seriously; it was amazing.

my mom doesn't hate me for the results i got which is brilliant cause i thought she'd screw. but no :D she bought me some new black skinny jeans and i'm going shopping with her on friday for college clothes. and i'm dying my hair & having it cut at some point this week.

things are looking up kiddos!

oh em gee, remember me?

2007-08-20T01:29:20Z

wow. i'm really bad at keeping up with things aren't i? it's been almost two months since i've lj-ed & even read lj's. so i read a load tonight, and i swear you all seem to have really active lives now. whereas this summer for me has been the most boring summer i can remember.

i'm not sure whether it's because like, i've had an extra 8 weeks off. but i've been bored shitless all summer. i can't wait to start college :) i get my GCSE results on thursday. i'm shitting it. not because of my results; because of my parents reaction. that sounds awful i know, but their opinion matters alot more to me than my own opinion.

i started a diet two days ago, and already i can see a difference. that's weird isn't it? but, really i can. god vera wang - princess is such a nice scent. i have a free card thing, hang on.. that's really off topic. scratch that, start again. yeah so i'm on a diet. actually it's pretty extreme; but don't worry i am eating LOL. i'm not anerexic or anything like that. just feeling a little fat tbf.

the people i have added on here should really get in touch with me again (: it's been too long. myspace.com/b_efi or bthny@hotmail.co.uk either is good.

i have fuck all else to report. i'll find something tomorrow though i'm sure. i'm gonna start blogging again like i did last yr. that was pretty good :)
over&out.

nothing's changed, i still love you.

2007-06-30T13:06:23Z

First things first: today I bought Mark Ronson's album and it's fucking immense. Seriously; the man remixes like a biatch. :)
Anyway, I haven't blogged in a while. I surprised myself by putting things on hold for my exams, I'm actually getting pretty responsible these days :s. I mean, I'm actually getting off my arse and looking for a job, I'm looking after Emily (my 5 year old sister) more, I'm actually doing things for other people off my own back. I'm fucking immense, oh aye!
The thing on my mind right now is job hunting & hair, both interesting subjects, I'm sure you'd agree.

On Wednesday I went to Leah's with Sasha, and it was bare joke. Anyway, while I was there Leah put her weave (for those who don't know: that's extensions, aha) in my hair, and I thought I'd look proper twatty, but I actually really loved it. So, I'm going to brace the subject with my mom tonight & see how it goes. No doubt she'll ask me to get a job and pay for it, so yeah. Job hunting: I have actually been trying really hard, but everywhere is either fully staffed or they want experience. And I have no experience at all. The only job I've ever done was a paper round (ahaha) or last year on work experience I managed the reception at Nonsuch (the primary school). I loved work experience, I'm going back there in September on Wednesday afternoons, cause at college I have Wednesday afternoons off and you can do "enrichment" but my drama school want at least a months experience teaching drama before they will let you enter the course I want to do. So yeah, I'll go back there. It's no hassle anyway, the school is actually on my road. LOL. I'm a lazy fuck.

I'm really happy right now. Seriously, I don't feel worried about anything. The only thing I'm really stressing about is a lack of money but once I sort the job out, that'll sort itself out and then everything will be peachy! :) I miss Charlotte big time. She got that job at her dads place and she works Monday-Friday, it's a pisstake ): I haven't seen her since 23rd June. That's timee ago, 'specially as it's my best friend ): I mean, there are a shitload of people I haven't seen since the last exam, but she's the one I miss mainly. On Tuesday I'm going to Sasha's though, so good times :) Get high, get drunk, get laid. LOLLLL. Wednesday I'm going to Alices for the day, I haven't been to Alice's since like the barbecue last July :OOO. Oh my god, that's so long ago.

I've disgusted myself by liking Amy Winehouse, I've always hated her and I do still hate her as a person, but her music has really grown on me :) It's all good though, I'm also obsessed with Plan B. I'm well gangsta.
So yeah, that's it really. I'll blog tomorrow if anything changes, oh here's a picture of me & Leah's weave. :D.
LATERZZZ.

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& oh my god i can't believe it.

2007-06-28T23:56:03Z

i finished my exams on the 23rd (last friday), it was such a liberating feeling: summer = (L).

i'll blog properly tomorrow, the last week has been hectic. too many parties & days out. i hope my whole summer goes like the last week has, it'll be well wkd.

so yeah, til tomorrow (:

btw; the lily allen & mark ronson remix of oh my god is immenseeeee.

probably..

2007-06-09T14:28:14Z

the best song in the world;

I hope this songs starts a craze,
the kind of song that ignites the airways
The kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are
with who ever they're there with
This is war
Every line is about who I don't write about anymore
Hope you come down with something they can't diagnose,
don't have the cure for
Holding on to your grudge
Oh it's so hard to have someone to love
Keeping quiet is hard
'Cause you can't keep a secret if it never was a secret to start
At least pretend you didn't wanna get caught.

hm, lauras party today (: i'm wearing my new brown dress. its probably the shortest thing i've ever worn. LOVE ITTT.

(:

can we just let it all out tonight?

2007-06-08T23:20:12Z

iyaaa!! (: happy as larry (and all of that). things have improved today to be honest, but ya'know. don't feel the need to go into graphic details. though i'm happy cause i'm listening to ministry of sound - dancemix summer 07, and to be honest it's got some fucking tunes on it.

yesterday was hectic. with german reading, then everyone @ my house and then the final english paper. both of the exams went well (:! i expected the german to be alot harder. but das war sehr gut! englisch war auch sehr gut. oh, my german skills are obviously something to envy.

and then today we had uhm, history. the paper was well long and i wrote loads, lolzzz. 16 pages? oh i'm sexy.

my dad just walked in, eurgh. there was more letters to do with his debt today. :@ pisstake no?

lauras party tomorrow, looking forward to it. i'll write some more then i think, i'm knackered right now. no more exams til tuesday :D

xo.

kiss you off my lips.

2007-06-05T21:40:39Z

i really planned to resolve things tonight, but i haven't got round to it. dancing was exhausting, i left the house @ 5 and got back in @ 8. I only expected to be there til half 6. but i suppose with the exam on sunday, i may aswell practise. though i'm fucking perfect. if i don't get honours, someone dies.
some old lady gave me a lift home. no idea who, but i had some bare joke with soph, kate and vicky while those oldies were dancing. NO WAY MATE! that bloke LOL, me & kate were wetting ourselves.

lauras birthday party saturday, i so want to go, but my mom is unsure cause of the exam the next day. god i hate her sometimes. nevermind.

science exam tomorrow, english exam today. was easy, english always is to me. if it wasn't; i'd be worried. i wrote 16 pages, LOL. i always write too much. i'm so cool.

that's it really, gonna go to bed now. OH SHIT. my sunburn is really bad, like worryingly bad. i've got a doctors appointment for tomorrow before my exam, so lets hope he doesn't give me any bad news eh?

night (L).

miss me? (;

2007-06-04T21:36:36Z

Yo. I really haven't been here in sometime, a fuck load of things have changed. Too many to name to be honest, god almighty. LOL. I'm not going to start with all the like, changes, because there are too fucking many & I'd get upset listing them all. Cause I'm well scene, me.

Uhm. Recentely? Well, I suppose I'm all good at the moment. Apart from the fact on Friday I kinda, well I dno, had an argument with someone. And I don't know if he's speaking to me.. but meh.

English paper one tomorrow. Oh the fucking joys. I keep swearing ): thats depressing, I wanted to stop. I'm too much of a neek. I always wanted to post pictures at the end of every entry, but like I broke my camera 8-) so LOL. I can't. Gutted for you all.

My hair is a lovely shade of red right now :) That's all to report captain.

NIIIGHTT!